Thoughts that go Through a Highschooler's Mind

side note on this picture.. My friend, Madeline was using my camera in class (I'm in yearbook so I bring my camera with me daily) and was playing around.. and this candid face kinda killed me.. and I pride myself on being open with y'all so here goes

Okay I didn't come up with the idea for this post at all.. I was ranting to Rachel, God bless her, and she suggested that maybe I could channel the energy into a blog post instead! And yes, she came up with the idea, and I'm so grateful for her. But being a student in high school myself, there's so many thoughts that go through my head in a day.. and I know that all of this stuff is pointless, and means literally nothing, but that's just high school! So here's a chance for y'all to peek inside my brain.. see what goes through my mind in a typical day at school. Get ready, this should be interesting. 

ugh.. morning.. wait is it Monday or Tuesday?

Shoot.. did I finish that?

Eh whatever. I'll finish it in class.

I really gotta pee... Is he taking a crap in there or something? HURRY UP I NEED THE PASS

This test ugh like I know anything.. I'll just put C. Oh wait I don't know this either. C. Ugh, why do I not know anything... I'll put C again. I wonder if I should change it up and put A just in case.. Definitely not. I'm sticking with C. 

Okay so this hallway is completely empty. It WAS a late start right? Wait why am I having a conversation with myself.. this is weird. Oh look someone's coming.. I should smile! Oh wow that was a really creepy smile.. sorry kid.

Did his voice just crack? Oh my goodness.. poor kid. 

Um, did I ask you about where your skirt is from.. Yeah I didn't think so.

Honey don't talk to me about Piko Shirts like I've never heard of them.. ARE YOU KIDDING ME

Shoot did I zip my zipper? I can't just check now.. That's weird. Um should I just glance down? yeah okay perfect. God bless it's zipped

Did I just go through my pad? Please no.. please no.. HALLELUJAH JESUS DOES LOVE ME

Wait, was he just staring at me.. Oh my gosh he totally was.. wait what should I do. wait shoot crap now I'm staring at him.. LOOK AWAY oh my now he's probably scared of me. yay. 

Awkward.. Why did he just stop on the stairs.. That's weird.. Why's he staring? 

Um why on earth is my new seat right here.. in the front.. ew.

NEED FOOD

Wait we don't get to pick our partners for the lab? That's annoying.

Pretty sure no one knew about that assignment.. Oh except for that kid.. whatever.. 

Done with this chick.

Didn't I wear that dress yesterday??? So um why are you wearing it now?

Could you be any more boring like really.. 

If you're trying to impress me by talking about your cat.. It's not working.. bye

Do I really not have a pencil.. who even am I

Seriously why do I drink so much water *drinks more water* I gotta pee

She's gonna think I have a bladder issue or something.. I mean I've gone to the bathroom 3 times already in the last 45 minutes

Would she mind if I like borrowed those grapes for an instagram post? Yeah that's weird.. I probably shouldn't ask her that. 

Hello.. I was talking.. Whatever, you know we'd much rather hear about your dead squirrel this morning on the side of the road.

Oops was I just staring at him again.. shoot. He's gonna think I like him or something.. Really I was looking out the window. At those flowers. That I'm gonna Instagram later.. oh crap I missed that "Can you repeat that please? I'm confused."

I wonder if we still have those cookies at home? I could really go for some oatmeal raisin right now

Oh HELLO Your cute

Can we like chew with our mouth's closed please.. Yeah k thanks

OKAY bad attitudes are NOT attractive buddy

OOH HE'S LOOKING OOH LOOK AWAY LOOK AWAY Omg he was cute.. 

I really just want to go home and watch Dancing with the Stars.

Did he really just say nice butt? yay. okay. Thanks kid. 

So that's cool now you won't talk to me? Um okay

Maybe if I go walk past his lunch table to get a spoon he'll say something --- okay apparently not. Did I really just trip over his bookbag.. that was.. wow. way to go Cath.

Pretty sure my heart is gonna burst out of my chest.. but why he's not even that attractive.

UGH AS IF *starts laughing* "What's wrong with you?" -some random kid

HOLY BICEPS oh that's awks he caught me looking

oh shoot oh no why is he STILL staring at me can we just talk PLEASE SO AWKWARD

Quit staring at me.. me walking around with a camera is not a reason to judge? 

blah blah blah blah blah... wait she just asked me a question.. "um the answer is true?" WOO POINT CATH

How did I know that about Harrapan society? Dude that was pretty awesome. 

Um what's an independent variable? I should know this I should know this what's wrong with me

Oh maybe that's why he's staring *casually.. okay who am I kidding NOT CASUALLY pulls dress down*

Does it matter if you forgot to put the flag up on the mailbox?

*Pulls out iPad to check blog stats* 

I wonder if my hair is frizzy in the back again.. I really hope not. Maybe if I put a little bit of water on it no one will notice... and everyone noticed.. yay. 

I HAVE TO SNEEZE WHY WON'T IT COME WHY AM I CRYING

I really need to pluck my brows tonight.. holy crap we got a situation up there

Did he just snort? 

Is she aware that 5 inches of makeup only clogs pores? It ain't hiding anything darlin'

Wait, was I asleep.. oh no. oh no. this is bad this is baaaaad.. wait no one saw God bless. 

OH MY CHOKING DYING *coughs ridiculously because water* OH OH NO DYING DYING WAIT *coughing uncontrollably because water* WHY IS NO ONE TURNING AROUND I SEE HOW IT IS BYE Y'ALL. 

Is he for real staring AGAIN?! QUIT making things awkward and come talk to me.. It's not like I'm freaking Cruella deVil or anything *laughs out loud becuase picturing myself in polka dots instead of stripes* now that's a scary thought.. "WHAT are you staring at?! I make myself laugh! Is that a problem?!!!?"

And that's it for me.. That's basically what goes through my head in a day at school.. Notice the lack of education related stuff.. and how I spend most my time confused or having to pee or laughing at myself.. y'know that's just typical me. HAPPY MONDAY FRIENDS! 

Semester Reflections

{I had no idea what to have as a photo for this post}

I Lived by OneRepublic pops into my mind when thinking of my freshman year in high school. Which is weird.. most high school and college graduates (that I know anyways) have been quoting that song everywhere. I think it's in my head a) because it's an amazing song, and b) because I did so much this year. It's been incredible. Older friends told me last Summer to prepare for a hurricane my freshman year and that it's one of the school years of their life. Mine was the total opposite. The second semester was the best part. I feel like the entire first semester is spent just getting into the groove of what you need to do, how you need to do it, and making an impression. The second semester is full of friends, fun, and studying your butt off. And I loved every single minute of it.. well looking back on it. At the time, of course not. It was awful. Like you would have to be crazy to enjoy studying for your AP exams, am I right? But looking back, I loved it. 

I cannot believe the year is over (as of now I have 3 half days left.. but it's basically over). So much has happened, I've changed so much, I've met incredible people and amazing friends, I've learned so much. One of my favorite classes from second semester was Photography. If you've followed me for a while you know I love my camera, and I love snapping shots for Instagram, Snapchat, ect. Well this year I really just wanted to learn more, and I did, and it was so fun.

assignment name: snapshot vs. photograph

assignment name: awkward angles & fine details

 assignment name: awkward angles & fine details with animals

assignment name: photograms
*excuse the table, these photos of my work were shot at school. I created these photograms in the dark room, and developed the photos myself.

extra assignment: landscape

assignment name: architecture

 Not quite remembering the last assignment's name.. but we took photos around the school on an old camera, developed the film, then developed a photograph.

Another class I thoroughly enjoyed this year was gym. The majority of my friends complained, grumbled, and groaned.. but I loved it. I lost a lot of weight, and it felt better too. Here's to keeping up healthy habits!

English was a lot of fun as well. You could probably guess (because y'know.. blogger) that English is my favorite class... and you'd be about right. I loved reading this year and practicing my writing skills. I had the most wonderful teacher (who even bought my momma's book!) and she taught me so much. 

Science and math were for sure the hardest classes I took this year. I struggled (and am still struggling.. my exam is Wednesday) in science. It was tough, my teacher was tough, and the subject just made zero sense to me. In Math, I passed my exam with an 89, and I couldn't be happier. 

Spanish was a lot of fun this year too! I had two great friends in that class with me.. shoutout to Sarah Grace and Megan.. and even though we talked a lot, and watched One Tree Hill, laughed at who was gonna be on the Bachelorette this season, and Dancing With The Stars, I learned a lot too! 

The only other class I took this year was IBA (business apps- so Word, PPT, Excel, and Access). That class was so cold. I remember freezing my butt off on the days I tried to look nice and wear a dress. I remember shaking, teeth chattering in the Winter when it was ALREADY cold outside.

So I wrote all that on Sunday... I wanted to wait until I actually had finished for the year to conclude this post. I'm in utter shock and just confusion about school right now. Kinda like this dazed feeling.. I'm not sure how to describe exactly what's happening right now. Like I've done so much and moved at such a fast pace all year that to stop suddenly for the Summer is just insane. 

Maybe I'll actually feel like it's #summer2k15 soon... Here's to sleeping. Sleeping a lot. And hopefully a ton of more blog posts from me:)